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With Every Breath על כל נשימה ונשימה

jyungar May 21, 2024

When a person is sleeping, however, the soul [neshama] [is left within him,and it] warms the body so it will not get too cold and die. That is what iswritten: “The spirit [neshama] of man is the lamp of the Lord” (Proverbs 20:27).

Rabbi Bisni, Rabbi Aḥa, and Rabbi Yoḥanan say in the name of Rabbi Meir: The neshama fills the entire body, and when a person sleeps, it ascends upward and draws life for him from above. Rabbi Levi said in the name of Rabbi Ḥanina: For each and every breath that a person takes, he must laud the Creator. What is the source? “Let every soul [neshama] praise God” (Psalms 150:6) – [read instead:] Let every breath [neshima] praise God.

Gen Rabba 14:9

A Hasidic master known as the holy Berdichever, the Kedushat Levi

He starts from Kol Haneshama tehalel yah. Levi Yitzhak asks us to recognize that every day we are a new creation. The Psalmist says, "Kol haneshama tehallel Yah" -- "Every living thing praises God" (Psalms 150:6). And the Midrash makes a tiny twist, yielding "Kol haneshima"-- "With every breath one praises God." Al kol neshima v’neshima – as the breath is constantly trying to leave us (release). But God keeps returning it to us. When this happens, we’re a great being. When this happens we have a great connection/joy/gratitude in serving God.

God breathes new life into us at each moment. Were it not for the loving vitality of the Divine, we would not survive from moment to moment. Each breath, each moment of life, is a new blessing, a new creation. And if we consider this, then we see that each moment is a new opportunity, a new beginning, in fact, a new lifetime. Entering each moment in this way, we may see clearly what is ours to do: to deepen love, to heal a soul, to save a life, to make a difference, to change the world.

Rabbi Levi Yitzchak of Berditchev (1740–1809)

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The Inner Spark - The inner essence of the soul, which reflects, which lives, the true spiritual life, must have absolute, inner freedom. It experiences its freedom, which is life, through its originality in thought, which is its inner spark that can be fanned to a flame through study and concentration. But the inner spark is the basis of imagination and thought. If the autonomous spark should not be given scope to express itself, then whatever may be acquired from the outside will be of no avail.

This spark must be guarded in its purity, and the thought expressing the inner self, in its profound truth, its greatness and majesty, must be aroused. This holy spark must not be quenched through any study or probing. The uniqueness of the inner soul, in its own authenticity – this is the highest expression of the Divine light, the light planted for the righteous, from which will bud and blossom the fruit of the tree of life.

Orot Hakodesh 1:177

Rabbah said: If the righteous wanted, they could create a world. What

interferes? Your sins, as it is written (Isaiah 59:2), "Only your sins separatebetween you and your God." Therefore, if not for your sins, there would not be any differentiation between you and Him.

We thus see that Rabba created a man and sent it to Rav Zeira. He spoke to it, but it would not reply. But if not for your sins, it would also have been able to reply. And from what would it have replied? From its soul. Does a man then have a soul to place in it? Yes, as it is written (Genesis 2:7), "And He blew in his nostrils a soul of life." If not for your sins, man would therefore have a "soul of life." [Because of your sins, however] the soul is not pure.

This is the difference between you and Him. It is thus written (Psalm 8:6), "And You have made him a little less than God." What is the meaning of "a little"?

This is because [man] sins, while the Blessed Holy One does not. Blessed be He and blessed be His Name for ever and ever, He has no sins.

Sefer HaBahir 196

A Midrash to Neshama

Neshima…breath

With every breath

It dawns upon me

No longer the brainstem controlling the ebb and flow of air

But a gift from

Above

No longer a historical event

Now a moment by moment gift

Of life of breath

I breath out

My resentments fears anxieties

My harms, the wreckage of the past, the people I hurt

My acts of commission and omission

All goes out with the polluted exhalation

And then a moment of death until You revive me once again

With that primordial breath of life even against my will

I cannot even control that!

As if to say

“live despite”

Your flaws, your excesses, your selfishness, your use of other for your own

pleasure….despite despite despite!

Here it is another breath

Here it is I’m not ready for you

Another opportunity to surrender your self

Standing in the way of this hunger for real life, the source of life

Don’t settle for less

This breath is an invitation

To surrender more and drown in the divine

With a song

Just sit quietly

And drown

In the sorrow of what is right now warts ‘n all

This failed life breath out!

This “piss-poor protoplasm”. Breathe out!

This nutty perfectionism breathe out!

This insane worry about reputation it’s too late!

Now…wait…until you cannot hold it any longer

And you must surrender to the inhalation

See?

Let Him fill you up

Breathing in His divine flow

The “shefa” for the moment

The neshima עַל כּלָ נשְׁיִמהָ וּנשְׁיִמהָ

So…

Every morning

Upon awakening from the 60th of death…sleep

Your first inhalation should follow this awareness

You have been revived from the dead

But you are expected to die to life nonetheless

Through surrendering this day

A deep breath of life

Hold it in for as long as you can

And be grateful

That is your neshama!!!!

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