Do not gaze at the sunset too long...
do not linger more than you have to,
knowing how hypnotic she can be,
for you must face what will happen shortly
so just marvel at the dying of another day.
You will grieve as the last sliver of gold gives way to a
hazy golden glow.. then nothing.
the sharp horizon is so unforgiving!
and we were taught it was only an iluusion!
that horizon of doubt
bein hashmashos
that halachic grey area
that vexed my father in law for decades
and self loss
leaving me now alone without the comfort of her presence,
alone in the twighlight.
Granted she leaves gracefully
almost imperceptibly,
dipping into the mikveh of the ocean
this gift of daylight
is now once again withdrawn
as if she has been dragged down by some unseen force
a hidden hand, a pharoah behind the mythical horizon.
Divine she remains, but now hidden, no longer powerful
her majesty has been compromised by another more
powerful force and in her wake is her demand
that I believe she will rise again tomorrow.
Her consort, the moon however is in full swing
blazing his own path across the darkening sky
yet we know well how dependent he remains upon the sun
despite her apparent absence.
Nevertheless he is capricious and no longer consistent
but dependent upon her monthly whims
waxing and waning like my own disbelief.
Its size reflecting its own heresy
its monthly crisis of faith
like a women's "friend" at times promising fertility
and joy at others, blood and rejection.
In this now almost darkness I must await her return
and find the belief in her willingness to light tomorrow’s
day so my only challenge is to survive the night
and rely aupon the wistful of the moon
So do not linger for too long
gazing at the dying of the sun
break the hypnotic illusion
for your tears will break your faith.
Learn to need the darkness
as the earth spins
and gives all their fare share.
Do not cry for her too long
for this is the very stuff of reality
as is your own dying
your own mortality
as you too will slowly sink behind the illusive horizon of
infinity into the mikveh of the ocean.
