After that our father Abraham had seen, and pondered
over, investigated, and understood these things, he
designed, engraved, and composed them, and received
them into his power (hands). Then the Lord of all appeared
unto him, took him to His bosom, and kissed his head, and
naming him after his own name, called him his friend; and
as it is written, completed a covenant with him and with his
seed forever, who then believed on God, the
Tetragrammaton, and it was imputed to him for
righteousness.
Sefer Yestira Chapter 6 Mishna 4
Into the Bosom of God
God taking Abraham into His bosom and kissing his
forehead and calling His beloved
What does it take?
An Abraham of course!
But he included us Abraham's descendents forever into
His bosom.
That is the covenant the Brit.
To be enveloped near the heart so close one can hear it
beating
To be enveloped with both arms; the right signifying
unconditional healing, the left a stricter yet caring love.
Held close until the breath gets short
Feeling the intensity of desire of the Father/parent.
Tears begin to flow
So this is what we were searching for, for so long
Filling our hearts with every kind of substitution including
work food drink
Rage false loves and desire
Only to find out that in the surrender the arms were waiting
all along
The bosom opens warm and receptive
And the breath full.
Sobbing for all the pain caused others
All the selfish pride and arrogance
All the denial and self delusions along the way
Too late for most
Many still smarting from the damage done years ago
Children in therapy for the demands to fulfill some ethereal
notion of success.
Parents harboring pain for abandonment at critical
junctures when needed
Absent for siblings emotionally
The litany continues on and on,
Heaving cries for a wasted life
Spent in illusion, missing the point
Chasing the life style not the content
The trappings of wealth and culture
Even the pursuit of academic credentials for other ends
Not an end in itself
The defiling of religious virtue and praxis
To impress others to impress period
But in the end not fooling oneself
The dark nights tell all
The restless awakenings
The legs keep moving though the body is still
The mind keeps racing
The thoughts never end with no peace…
As a child of Abraham
Whose grandfather was Ellis Abraham
Whose grandson is Abraham Menashe
Who’s added name is Abraham born out of the current
trauma
Four generations no doubt more ancestors as seen in the
cemetery in Cochin
Surely we too have the right as his descendants
To make claims
To beg being taken I
Into the bosom of God!
Avinu Malkeinu.
May this child of God grow to fix things
His ancestors as yet were unable to accomplish
What a weight upon those little shoulders!
But that is the price he pays
Another Akeidat Yitzchak
The altar of expectations this time
Poor thing.
