In illness the “evil” the negative, the infective becomes
incarnate in the flesh in the body finding its fulfillment in
the fever and suppuration.
In aging too the decrepit and arthritic the gnarled joints
and deformities reflect the inevitable movement towards
decay and death atrophy and defilement.
Satanic forces chthonic forces slowly occupy the territory
once proud of its youthful vigor as the singular expression
common to myriad diseases and ailments.
As one feels this process going through the body daily one
must learn to accept the infirmity bit by bit accepting the
divine decree that man shall live that immortal Adam shall
be spared immediacy of sentence but also die, slowly.
The divine contains both light and dark an antinomy of
sefirotic incompatibilities uncanny and exasperating and
we are the bearers of this divine dark side mostly in our
suffering and broken lives
and in the aging body in illness.
A spiritual opportunity arises then in dis-ease to come a
little closer to this divine incarnation sheltered as we are
normally from satanic mills for we are able to manifest the
divineʼs need in our bodies in our degeneration to express
itself in the minor key.
In accepting this dark side of spirituality and in the deep
gnawing pain in the refusal to be anesthetized for a
moment longer we find rest from the pious and the
pompous theologies and Holier-than-Thou sermons from
the naive emotional betrayal of wholeness for the naive
Good God.
Finally God will find a bit of rest from the projections of
perfection we have hoisted on Him for centuries and thank
us kindly for sharing in this deep secret the wounding of
His beloved the petty hurts He and we share as we dig the
knife ever so deeper into our loved ones then awaken to
see the damage.
Finally He will share what has been so long on His mind
about that fateful historical decision to let Satan loose in a
dangerous game that cost so many so much.
Let the pain linger a little longer so that we can all come a
little closer to this divine opening of the secret chest where
all will be made understandable in fantasy and all will be
justified in humor even though both parties will be weeping
tears that will cause a tsunami in the oceans.
